Family:
I love my parents and i definitely cannot leave without them... wherever i go, with friends or mohammed... they are always there in my mind... im so attached to them that at times, im so scared to even get married or even getting engage! It gives the creep out of me! i love them, i love them! you know.. everytime when i think about my parents, i can definitely cry instantly...
My sister, we quarreled and argued but if you are reading this, i want you to know how i love and care so much for you... i never got the chance to tell you how i feel coz we never open up with each other before... do you know, everytime you leave the house for work... i will definitely worry about how the people at your workplace are treating you... good or bad... i never like the feeling... i hate it whenever anybody makes her cry or even hurt her...
These days, i hardly see you at home... you are so busy working until i forgot when was the last time we spent our time together! But few days back i had fun! we helped dad with his wallpaper... we watched tv together... we danced! i feel so lonely at home now...
But thank god, mom and dad are they to keep me company by watching hindi movies at home together! so sweet!
Love:
Sayang, you understand me so much... and i know no one knows me better than you do... not even myself. Honestly, of all the people i've met, mohammed is the only person whom i know loves me so much without even he having to tell me each and everyday how he feels towards me... His silence says it all...
I know and i realised that the reason we quarelled, it all started because of me. Because sayang, i didn't get the attention i need from a boyfriend.. Just the attention i get from him is really... 10% from what i expected from him... it hurts me at times, but i've learnt to accept him for who he is... love you wak! i don't believe in a perfect guy but, i do believe that he is the one for me....
Friends:
Well, honestly, i really miss spending time with yuko, shalini and sobrie... we were so close when we were in ite. But since poly, we hardly see each other and even having to spend time with each other will definitely be the hardest thing ever.
Guys, if you're reading this, i can even cry thinking of you... i miss those days when we struggle together. The good and bad times we had... we pushed our way through poly coz that was what we struggle to achieve for... Remember the crap i always crap about! all of us would definitely laughed to tear! Sasa! Sasa! Sasasasasa.... hehehehheeh! i wanna see you guys so badly... im going to cry now... so im going to divert my attention to....
Sharul my friend, you've been through a lot for these past few days... and weeks i must say... i must applaud you for you have been very tough girl... if i were to be in your shoes, i guess i might just walk off... but you were strong enough and i know you still are... while typing, i just got your msg and you guys are back again! again and again! hehehehe! so happy for you.... but the challenge you gotta face after this gonna be tough and let me advise you, that 3 times a week is just enough for you... trust me!
wanna know something, initially, i never thought sharul and i can never be good friends... just normal friends..d. but in fact now we are close budds... :)
Others gonna laugh at me if i say this... at times i miss those times i spent with an ex-friend of mine... so yeah... don't wanna say much la... heartache!
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