Research On Men's Silence (Mohammed)

Which i can never understand it until just now. So, im a bit off today... im trying to be like mohammed. Keep things to myself and not say how i was feeling towards him today. Gosh! That was like the hardest thing to... It kept me thinking the whole day.. How on earth he is able to do that every single day?! That was absolutely ridiculous!

Ok ok, people might just go... Oh no, not again Sue! Lovey dovey stuff... Ok no! This time im clearing my doubts on him and to understand him better... i mean, i understand him so much now.. but you know a little more better... if you know what i mean....

I did a research on why men love to hide or keep their feelings and emotions unlike women... Ok, i guess if any guy is reading this... they might just roll their eyes... Ok, if my mohammed keep on saying.. 'I was born like this' over and over again... That doesn't help me even a single bit... In fact, i will suffer with doubts..

Too much of a talking... Urgh Sue! Focus! Ok, there were so many related sources... but this one i like the best:

Secret # 1: Men express their feelings through action more than through words.

When your boyfriend has a bunch of flowers delivered to your office, it’s his way of saying that he’s thinking about you. When a relatively new beau plans for a long weekend that you two can go together next summer - it’s his way of saying that he plans to stick around for a long time. When he has your car sent to the mechanic for an engine check-up, its means that he cares a lot about your safety. The cliché actions speak louder than words applies when it comes to men’s feelings.

So instead of waiting for an undying declaration of love - look for those little and grand gestures which show rather than tell you how he feels.

Secret # 2: Men are reluctant to talk because they’re afraid of saying something wrong.

Admit it -almost every woman feels like she can give Oprah a run for her money as a talk show host. This is exactly what men are intimidated with. For the most part, men feel that if they open up about their feelings, women will put on their ‘psyche’ mode. They feel that saying the wrong thing will put them in a lot of trouble -that’s why they clam up. Giving them some a lot of leeway in this area is always a good idea.

Secret # 3: It’s a neurological thing.

Without the basic physical and psychological differences between men and women, relationships would not be as exciting. Life would never be the same without experiencing the joys of falling in love and suffering the pains of a breakup.

Now, when it comes to talking about feelings, the culprit is the Corpus Callosum, the part of the brain which connects the left and right brain hemisphere. Let’s not go into the scientific stuff here -but the gist is that this part of the brain is larger in women than men. The result is that women can think and feel at the same time -while men naturally separate their feelings from what they are thinking. This creates their reluctance to talk about all that mushy stuff that women love to hash out.

Well, i fully understand him now... Hehehehehe! So cool!!

Ok, So i've seen all this in mohammed before and seriously, i felt so much better after reading this... Secret #3 i like it the best! You know the part where it says that it has got something to do with our brain helped me so much! I mean, i have no idea how does it work and it is so scientific which somehow, i felt that was just it! I'm doubt-free!!!

And by the way, maybe im a little out-dated but there is this book to recommend women who still wonder why men don't pour their feelings to them. It is the 'Why Men Don't Listen and Women Can't Read Maps' By Allan and Barbara Pease. Gotta go to the library tomorrow!! Dozing off now!

Courtesy from: http://allwomenstalk.com/top-secrets-why-men-dont-talk-about-their-feelings/

Solution - Refresh!

Ok, this might sound really pathetic! So, i did say in my tag board that i just found out about the stats function for my blog... Funny thing was, the first time when i added it in my layout, it was shown there '1 hit'. Seriously, it was seriously pathetic to see just a '1' there instead of 3 to 5 digit! I could kill for it! That '1' just got me so irritated and bothered and embarrassed!

And the next day.... Walaaa.....!!! I found a solution to actually increase the number of hits! Well... i just need to refresh my web browser!!! Hehehehe! I know... i know... too smart huh... Biase je tu...

So, now im going to keep on refreshing it again!

Losing Weight

Never easy. Trust me. Oh God! The thought of waking up in the morning for a jog, never seem to work! I am just too lazy to even drag myself out of the bed! God knows! I bought dumbells.. and gym ball.. Never even make use of any!

So, now aku telah bertekad, untuk mencabar kemalasan ini! Next morning, i can confirm!!! Jog tewoooosss! Bile lagi kalau bukan sekarang.... Kau nak jadi gemuk macam....

Ei! Cakap pasal gemuk ni... I was watching the news earlier, there's this baby, he was like what? 11 months? but weigh as old as an 8 year old kid! Let me see whether i can get a photo of him.... Tadaaa!!!

Now, this is what they called the MICHELIN BABY! CUTE! Ya allah, jangan la anak aku jadi ginik... ni confirm susah nak jalan!!!

http://www.nbc11.com/news/17334810/detail.html

Confessions of Sue

Family:

I love my parents and i definitely cannot leave without them... wherever i go, with friends or mohammed... they are always there in my mind... im so attached to them that at times, im so scared to even get married or even getting engage! It gives the creep out of me! i love them, i love them! you know.. everytime when i think about my parents, i can definitely cry instantly...

My sister, we quarreled and argued but if you are reading this, i want you to know how i love and care so much for you... i never got the chance to tell you how i feel coz we never open up with each other before... do you know, everytime you leave the house for work... i will definitely worry about how the people at your workplace are treating you... good or bad... i never like the feeling... i hate it whenever anybody makes her cry or even hurt her...
These days, i hardly see you at home... you are so busy working until i forgot when was the last time we spent our time together! But few days back i had fun! we helped dad with his wallpaper... we watched tv together... we danced! i feel so lonely at home now...

But thank god, mom and dad are they to keep me company by watching hindi movies at home together! so sweet!

Love:

Sayang, you understand me so much... and i know no one knows me better than you do... not even myself. Honestly, of all the people i've met, mohammed is the only person whom i know loves me so much without even he having to tell me each and everyday how he feels towards me... His silence says it all...

I know and i realised that the reason we quarelled, it all started because of me. Because sayang, i didn't get the attention i need from a boyfriend.. Just the attention i get from him is really... 10% from what i expected from him... it hurts me at times, but i've learnt to accept him for who he is... love you wak! i don't believe in a perfect guy but, i do believe that he is the one for me....

Friends:

Well, honestly, i really miss spending time with yuko, shalini and sobrie... we were so close when we were in ite. But since poly, we hardly see each other and even having to spend time with each other will definitely be the hardest thing ever.
Guys, if you're reading this, i can even cry thinking of you... i miss those days when we struggle together. The good and bad times we had... we pushed our way through poly coz that was what we struggle to achieve for... Remember the crap i always crap about! all of us would definitely laughed to tear! Sasa! Sasa! Sasasasasa.... hehehehheeh! i wanna see you guys so badly... im going to cry now... so im going to divert my attention to....

Sharul my friend, you've been through a lot for these past few days... and weeks i must say... i must applaud you for you have been very tough girl... if i were to be in your shoes, i guess i might just walk off... but you were strong enough and i know you still are... while typing, i just got your msg and you guys are back again! again and again! hehehehe! so happy for you.... but the challenge you gotta face after this gonna be tough and let me advise you, that 3 times a week is just enough for you... trust me!
wanna know something, initially, i never thought sharul and i can never be good friends... just normal friends..d. but in fact now we are close budds... :)

Others gonna laugh at me if i say this... at times i miss those times i spent with an ex-friend of mine... so yeah... don't wanna say much la... heartache!

Tree-Top Walk

CANCELLED! I was so eager to go but unfortunately our dear sharul was having diarrhea (is that how you spell it?). Anyway, because she had briyani and dalca! My god!! I've packed my stuff the night before and this! Yeah, i was kinda upset because i was already up for it.

I don't i seriously wanna go and make i'll go! Girls, we need to set another date again! Please!! :)

Fireworks

Hello!!!!! Ok let's update update!!

Last friday, Mohammed and me and his friend kamal and wifey, azura, all of us went to esplanade reason being was I wanted to see fireworks! Charlyn and Sharul had plans with their respective love ones to watch the fireworks... So i thought, why not i spend with my love one too! hehehehehe!

We waited like for 2 hours for the firework! All of us was about to leave the place and we heard loud noise and realised that was just it! Fireworks! Unfortunately, from the place where we stood, we hardly see anything!!! Lucky us, we found a place behind this building and saw a preview of it! urgh! But i was really happy though!

By the way! Kamal said I look plump! more plump! God!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok ok... i know and im aware that i ate a lot! Due to the stress i was having during exams! But do i look really bad? i mean that bad? but that plump! Gosh! That was like my wake up call to go for running and so I did earlier this morning!

Here are some photos of our day out... and maybe you can judge whether am i! let me repeat am i growing?!!

Loooook so good, yaar!!! heeee....

So, i really didn't care about how i looked on that day! I didn't bother...! But deep inside me i knew i looked horrible... please excuse me... i know i know... i hardly look this horrible... coz usually i look even worse!

This is azura! Very very cute buddy! ok with that shirt... i guess it was reasonable enough that might look plump on that day...

Sehati sejiwa.. they never planned to wear the same outfit... well almost but colour, close to exactly the same!

So imagine... for 2 1/2 hours we waited... these boys got nothing better to do... and i kept praying... oh god! oh god! save me from this embarrassment! :)

Big disappointment! Big one! But i was still happy though even jump for joy! The lamp post killed the whole view.. almost!

Mohammed have some crazy pictures he took.. wait till i get it from him and post it! hehehehehehee!

Done With It

It's finally over!!! Over and done with!! Yuhuu!! Giving myself a one week break, and then job hunting!!

So, i met Mohammed just now after 3 weeks!! Wow! Mohammed understands me so well... In fact, he knows me too well and he jut seems to know what I'll be thinking without even having to pour myself out...

Oh and next monday!! Tree top walk y'all!!! Yippie!!! So Charles, he better come!! Something tells me he gonna back out last minute! He better come! And girls! We gonna have fun! oh girls.... gonna have fun!

I've been eating a lot due to my over-stress and gonna work harder on losing weight now!!!

Thank You Mom!

No.. not Mother's Day or even Mom's Birthday...

But thank you mom for the COFFEE! That i can't even go to sleep now! Im so awake.. and the best part im having class at 10 am later!

p.s: ma, i think tea sound so much better. Ok Peace!

The Singing Sensation and Flying 'Thing'

Well, today another wedding I had to attend!! Hehehehehe! Alright.. you might get really bored of this but Mohammed was there too today!! Hehehehehe! I was so excited and got really sleepy and bored at the wedding... Sitting there, eating and entertained myself by watching people singing... And the worst part of all... it was the same group of people singing over and over again...

Until! The 5 men... or shall i say boys, was called up to sing together. Lagu mintak ampun! ISABELLA, BEB! My heart suddenly dropped when Mohammed name was called!! Oh my goodness! My dearest dad was there of course!! That minute, I had no idea why but i really felt like hiding under the table... But he sang well though...

Weird part was dad took a picture and video of them singing... It was weird cos i know my dad... he never will take unnecessary pictures!! Oh lord... don't worry i even manage to take a pic of them from my hp...

Mohammed in the middle, right is my cousin (in white) and remaining, i know them since I was small except the pink guy.

So, i just end my study session... and i just realise why is it for the past 2 days while studying at this time, some flying 'thing' will definitely enter my house (from the window of course). I will definitely run around the house coz im so scared of them! I know... im like more than 100 times bigger than them! But they look so horrible and always scare me off! So, i will have to get ready this (see below).....

To protect myself from unnecessary injury y'all... Mortein, keep it handy! You'll never know when you need it!

Another Wedding Fever

Ok, yeah true... hehehehe! that I did say that im going to post again after 21st Aug, but hehehe! today i went for a wedding... and my dearest mohammed was there too! How sweet!

Ok, the fun part die bukak silat! Aduh.....! That aku rase macam... Ya Allah! My Hero! The serious look on his face... Ganteng Bangat!! Waduh!!!

My sis took the video bile tgh silat...!



Go Mohammed Go! Fiwwiiit!! When I saw him did that. i just feel.. this is just the right guy for me!! Doesn't make sense at all! But yeah!! Hehehehehehe! Ok, ok.... Sue go study!! Bye y'all...

Attention!

Shall continue my posting after 21st August 2008! Too Busy!!!

Happy Listening!

This song is specially dedicated to Mohammed, Sharul and Boyfriend and to others whose marriage is around the corner!!

Why suddenly about marriage? Read below!

When we were on our back home, Sharul and me were talking bout marriage! It was damn funny la! We have our own ideas on how our wedding should be! It was fun! The journey back home was seriously fast...

Biase la! Girls you know... marriage is just an interesting topic! Especially kalau semue da tak sabar!

Sharul, decided to do... everything so Star Wars! And me... I want a military band instead of kompang and playing hindi songs! If possible it must be very bollywood! We even planned of what we decided to wear for wedding photos!

Sharul decided to wear this for one of her wedding photos... This is like her heritage! Hell yeah!

Her mode of transportation

And I.... decided to pose like this and wearing the sari... And it must be at some desert... Baru feeling!!!

JENG... JENG JENG!!! Mohammed will wear this! Arey Wah!!! Fiwiiiiittttt!! Same colour lagik!


And maybe I should also consider this too! (Below)


What were these people thinking?!?!?! Goodness!!

Sue's Tearing Day - 31/7/08

1. Someone ended his friendship with me

2. Sharing my problems with my dear friends

3. My sis achievement today

1 & 2 let me keep it as something personal... I don't want to make any accusations and judgements.

But 3!! Congratulations Maya!!!!!!!! She received an offer from FATIMAH MOHSIN herself to further her course at Cosmoprof! Wow!!!!! Jealous a bit a of course! Her path is just so easy... I'm struggling so hard over here! Who will not... it's nature...

But whatever it is, she proves other people wrong!!!!!! Yippie! And I heard that she gonna work for FM and good payment also.. more than what i'll be receiving... So happy for her... More than what me and my parents expected! Congratulation and celebration!!! MAC DONALD PLEASE!!!