I was not in school last Friday... Oh God! Only God knows what I went through early friday morning... 2 things happened at one time! All I wanted to do was to.... to.... to.... I DON'T EVEN KNOW WANTED TO DO FOR GOD'S SAKE!
I was so depressed! I had a big quarrel at home! bout 2 in the morning till what? 4? I dunno! I can't remember! It was seriously a big fight! I remember that I bang the door hard, until this thing like an ornament i hang it at my door knob, broke into pieces! Mom, sis and me was practically shouting at each other!
What made me more upset was I broke up with Mohammed! Mohammed, the one I was and still am in love with... Oh lord... I was really upset that night...
Mohammed, he is a quiet guy... whenever we quarreled, he shut himself up and won't utter a word... even during a normal conversation he just didn't talk because the reason was the questions he wanted to ask was already answered! No wonder I always feel so sleepy whenever we talk on the handphone.... damn!
That morning, I couldn't help it.. and I couldn't tolerate with his silence anymore... and told him that we should go our seperate ways.. I just wanted him to think that all i need was affection. I hardly heard anything that every girlfriend in this world would wanna hear from their man... you know what I mean....
One year over, and he didnt change a bit... so I made the decision....
I do appreciate my friends' concern towards me... Sharul, Syahid, Charles and Charlyn.. It was really sweet of you guys...
But you guys wanna know something... WE PATCH THINGS UP!!
I realised that if I really love someone, I have to accept the person for who he is... And i will and i am... And.. he also promise to change for the better! I LOVE HIM! I LOVE HIM! I LOVE HIM! SAYANG AWK!
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